We cannot direct the winds, but we can adjust our sails.
I'm giving up, I'm giving up slowly.
Blending in so you won't even know me.
I've had a terrible track record with men in my past, and I was
always the girl that never believed in love lasting love. But ever
since you walked into my life, from day one, you changed
me and my views for the better. Everytime I see you, talk to
you, think about you..whether it's good or bad, whether we're
fighting or even not speaking to each other at that time; my heart
always beats faster and the butterflies start. You make me nervous,
you make me smile, laugh, and actually love who I am. You make
me want to be a better person and have a future, a future with you.
I know that we've gone through a lot and I guarentee that there's
gonna be many fights and tears to come, but as long as you're trying..
I'm not going anywhere.
(made by me)
That awkward moment when you're about to hug
somebody sexy and you bump into the mirror.
The only exercise some people ever get is running
their mouths and jumping to conclusions.
You'll never get anywhere believing your own lies.
Its hard to throw up the deuces because when you know
its juicy you start sounding like Confuscious making up excuses.
If you ask me how I'm doing I would say I'm doing just fine,
I would lie and say that you're not on my mind.
If you ever leave me baby, leave some morphine at my door.
‘Cause it would take a whole lot of medication
to realize what we used to have, we don’t have it anymore.
You demand to be chased for your love.
My desperate heart is far too weak to run for you this long.
Can you take this silence like a pill so I can breathe again?
I've been trying to ignore the best part of you.
But I'm still hoping that I'll be with you somehow.
What would it take for me to be with you?
I swear I'd rip my heart out if you said you'd be impressed.
Hopeless love, why did you carve your home in me?
This broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
And now I regret the day we met, help me forget your name.
I found a boy who I love more, than I ever did you before.
So stand beside the river I cried, and let yourself down.
Look at how you want me, now that I don't need you.
And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand.
Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me.
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me, hang from your hands.
I said I'd never be your pain but I can't even hear your name
without just dying. And I thought I'd never play the game,
but I will even take the blame. I'm praying you run back to me.
Now I'm trying to figure out why does heartbreak always cloud the truth.
And where went my independence, I guess it died with you.
And when life has passed me by and it's taken back it's time.
All I know is you're the one and as long as my heart beats..
Till you come back to me, I'll be holding on our love.
I applied for a Disney Intership in Florida this weekend. I have the
phone interview on Thursday after class, and I'm super nervous.
For those of you that are in college, check this out! It's an AMAZING
opportunity for everyone, I mean you get to live in Florida, work at
Disney World, and get free admission to the park, an apartment with
other interns and they pay for two college classes while you're there.
I really hope I get it, because it's gonna be so awesome and I'll be
only 30 minutes from Colby instead of 19 hours. Speaking of me and
him, we're doing amazing right now. It's taken a lot of hard work to get
back to this place, but it's so worth it. And if I get accepted into the
internship, I'll be in Florida from January to August. That's 8 months
of freedom, Florida weather, and seeing the guy I love. Need I say more..?
^^ check it out and apply girls !
- XOXO Chrissy